January 2022
Today would be your fifth birthday. It’s hard to imagine what my life was like before you. Everything that I thought that was so important has taken second place to attempting to live my life in a richer, fuller and gratitude filled existence. In reflection I have selfishly contemplated what I have missed since your passing. I have been robbed of those special little milestones and firsts that make up a child’s life. Your first smile, the first time you say daddy, the first time you try solid food, your first steps and the list goes on with all the milestones that every parent enjoys observing in their children. Recently I have shifted my thoughts from what I have missed as a result of your passing to what you have missed from not being in the physical plane. I watch how your beautiful little sister interacts with the world and I see the delight and curiosity in her face at the little things that most of us forget to notice. The smell of a flower, the feeling of connecting your feet to the ground, watching a bird land in a tree, that pleasure from yummy food in your mouth and anything and everything that arouses the five senses. I have learnt from you and your sister that to make the most of each and every moment in life and attempt to see the world as a child does. A world filled with possibilities and opportunities for interaction. Your small life has made a big impact on me sweetheart. I miss you. I love you and when my eyes close at the end of each day I hope that I visit you in the place where everyone and everything is the same. Happy birthday darling. Love Daddy xxoo